Hey guys. Just updating to let everyone know that I'm still alive. Lol.

Not much has been going on too much really. Just dealing with a lot of drama with a friend and stuff that's happening to him at the moment but doing my best to be there for my him. Its getting pretty bad but both me & my bf Juan are doing our best to give him advice and be there for him. He's like a brother to us so we care a lot about him.

Been trying to get back into drawing but haven't finished anything. I'm gonna try to practice coloring with photoshop. Just wanna try it to see if i like it or if I wanna stick with using prismacolors. I have a tablet and everything. I just need to actually use it. lol

Earlier this month, me & Juan celebrated our 2 year anniversary. Yay! Yea, i honestly doesn't even seem that long but it has and I'm so happy with him. ^^

I'm almost done with college altogether as well. I just finished the Spring semester back in May. I passed all my classes with all A's. Go me! I have only 4 classes left before I get my AAS and 2 certificates. I'm so excited! I can't wait to start working in the gaming industry! Its a long shot but I hope to eventually end up working for Blizzard. That would be so awesome! But I would have to be REALLY good (and REALLY lucky) to end up there. But I can dream, right? Pixar would be even more awesome but who am i kidding? Lol

Speaking of which, we went and saw Toy Story 3 yesterday. Man, that movie so depressing at some points it almost made me AND my bf cry! It was a really great movie though and I think it was just as good the other 2 movies. Also, the easter eggs were nice.

Been playing Fiesta Online a lot lately. So if anyone here by small chance play, feel free to add me as a friend (though I also have to be online when you do that) and we can play together. For those who don't know what Fiesta Online is, its a free MMORPG (Massive Multiplayer Online Role-playing Game) set in a fantasy setting and the style is very anime-ish. Its a very simple game to play and easy to figure out even if you've never played an MMO before. It was my first MMO so i should know. But yea, it would be nice to have someone to play with so if anyone's interested you can download the game here: [link] (the link also gives you more info on the game if you wanna find out more before deciding to play). I play on Apoline server mostly but also have low-lvl characters on Teva and Bijou. ^^

So back in December we got about an inch or 2 of snow here in Dallas, Tx. For Dallas that was i big frikken' deal...cuz its Texas...it just doesn't snow here! The last time we got snow here was in the 50s. My parents weren't even born when it last snowed before then. Most of it melted the next day and we figured it wouldn't happen again for awhile...

We were wrong. Thursday, we had an actual snowstorm. This time, 7-8 inches in our neighborhood. Seriously, it just doesn't feel like Texas right now! Its pretty awesome. Yea the streets aren't too safe right now and its cold as hell, but its perfectly fine as long as we don't get too much snow. Its starting to melt away already so I'm sure things will back to normal soon. I'm wondering if we'll have another snowstorm before winter ends. That would be cool, but not likely. But you never know. Texas has always had unpredictable weather, but never THIS unpredictable!

But at least the weather today is decent enough for us to have our D&D game. Yayz!

Just updating letting anyone here who has a Facebook that I also have one too if you'd like to add me:

facebook.com/vankala86

I'm not leaving DA or anything. I was just letting anyone who has a FB know what mine is so they can add me.

Whether I will for sure or not idk, but I sure will try. I need to get back into drawing as well. I think that's what's been keeping me from DA. I haven't drawn anything for long time ( I don't count doodles, lol), but I'm gonna try to get back into doing that again. I just have to find the time to do so. I'm always so busy with school, work, and chores that I never really feel like it. In my free time I'm mostly playing WoW or out with my bf, Juan. But I will try, that's what's important. I've been thinking about getting back into designing tattoos. I started off pretty good, but then when Michael (ex-fiance) broke up with me, I just kinda lost interest in about everything. And just the other day Juan and his brother, Alfredo were talking about tattoos and I showed them some of my designs, it just kinda reminded me how much I enjoyed doing those. I'll probably upload those in the near future. ^^

So, has anyone else seen Paranormal Activity yet? I saw it a couple of weeks ago with Juan (before it got so popular, bwahaha). It was really good, I loved it. I have not seen a movie that actually scared me in a really long time. And that's saying something cuz I'm not easily scared. Yea, if you like scary movies, its definitely worth seeing. Only thing is, you might get motion-sickness from the shaky camera movements. We did (but it was still worth it, dammit) but we found that standing actually helped a little bit. Just a little warning.

School's been going ok so far this semester. As some may already know, I'm going to a different school now going for my Associate's in Computer Graphics. I'm really loving my 3D Modeling/Rendering class, though I'm finding my 3D Animation & Basic Animation classes pretty tough. I'm doing my best though. ^^ I think I might look into doing 3D Modeling as a career cuz I really enjoy doing that. My dream career would be working for either Pixar or even Blizzard (the company that makes the Warcraft, Diablo & Starcraft games). Both companies do really great 3D Animation its not even funny, especially Blizzard! If ya'll think Final Fantasy: Advent Children had great cinematics, check out the cinematic trailer for WoW: Wrath of the Lich King (or any of them for that matter).

Speaking of WoW, I can't for the next expansion! I do have complaints about it though (get ready for nerd-rant) like the fact that Horde gets frikken Goblins for a new race and the frikken' Alliance get Worgens (basically, werewolves for those non-WoW players). For one, Goblins are freaky-looking and Worgens are just awesome. Two, it just doesn't make much sense having Worgen on Alliance side, seeing as Alliance hates anything just even *looks* monstrous (those bastards, lol jk). And since Worgen are basically werewolves....well, you get hte point. And three...I still don't really like Goblins. Another complaint I have has to do with the storyline. Thrall (leader of the Orcs) goes off somewhere (I forget where) to try to make peace with the Alliance and leaves another Orc (I forget his name but he his an already existing character in WoW as well as Warcraft) in charge in his place. Unfortunately, said Orc decides to go power-hungry and declare all-out war with the Alliance. He even goes as far as to poison & kill the leader of the Tauren just because, like Thrall, he wanted to make peace with the Alliance. So yea, because of this I probably won't be visiting Orgrimmar (Orc city) that much once I get this expansion. I'll still play Horde, but just won't be going there as much. Kinda sucks, cuz that's actually one of my favorite cities. Lol. But despite all that, I still look forward to the expansions for the things that they're adding, especially Heroic SFK (Shadowfang Keep)!! XD For those who don't know SFK is a low-level instance that gives great loot and is actually pretty fun to go through. Though the loot is only really good if you're a low level character (lvl 15-20). But with the new expansion, they're gonna have a Heroic SFK, which means it'll have better loot for higher-lvl characters. Not sure what lvls, but I'm hoping it'll be at least lvl 70 loot (I'm about to hit lvl 65 on my main, Vankala). I also like the fact that we'll finally get to use flying mounts in Azeroth. At the moment, flying mounts can only used in Outland and Northrend (the only continent on Azeroth where you can use flying mounts).. I just got my first flying mount myself and I'm finding it VERY useful and I'm already wishing I could use it in the other continents! Lol.

While I'm on the topic of WoW, I've just gotta say, I'm actually looking forward to the WoW movie. Usually, I'm a bit worried that Hollywood would really fuck up a movie based on a game. But the fact that its gonna be directed by the one and only Sam Raimi gets me pretty psyched for it. I've been a fan of his since the Evil Dead movies and I haven't seen a Sam Raimi movie that I didn't like. And with the Spiderman movies, Raimi has proved that he can please even the nerds so I trust a WoW movie in his hands. Don't disapoint me, Raimi!! XD

Conversation between me & "The Ex" late last night over Yahoo after i got home from an anime convention (which i will talk about in my next post). Yea, something'sseriously wrong with this guy. He says one thing and does another. Wtf? 0o? Anyways, read on so you guys can see just how fucked up this guy is -_-+ He IMs me out of the blue and needless to say, he really pissed me off...and that's saying something cuz I'm a very forgiving person. Anyways, read on (he's reaperofcards and i'm vankala86, just so you know).

reaperofcards1533: i hope that someone can make u happy abd im sry that it cant be me
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: You made me the happiest the person in the world when i was with u. I'm tired of you playing these mind games with me so just leave me alone ok?
reaperofcards1533: im not trying to play a game here i know that we cant ever be together but i want u to be happy and i hope that u want the same for me im trying to be civil about this
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: U kept putting ideas into my head that u wanted to work things out and then u purposely avoid seeing me this weekend
reaperofcards1533: thats waasnt the case
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: and then u tell me that there was 'nothing to talk about' even though u said u wanted to talk about this at A-Kon
reaperofcards1533: things changed
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: no they haven't, otherwise you would've at least told me what exactly changed
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: you avoided even talking to me over the phone
reaperofcards1533: i knew u woulsnt understand
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: how can i understand something u won't even talk to me about?
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: JUst leave me alone. I've realized you don't love me and you never did and never will. You've been lying to me from the start and you've been treating me like i meant nothing to you for the past month.
reaperofcards1533: thats where ur wrong
reaperofcards1533: but if u want me to disappear i will but i will always have a way to know how ur doing
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: I'm not wrong. It took me way too long to figure it out, but I'm glad i finally did. Do what u want. I figured out the real you and i can never forgive you for what you did and what you took from me.
reaperofcards1533: u wouldnt understand it even if i told u
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: yes i would....you never gave me the chance
reaperofcards1533: and rosa i did love u but i didnt love ur family and i had a feeling that they didnt care that much for me
reaperofcards1533: i hope u can find happiness and i will never forget that u were the first i opened my soul to
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: i just can't believe anything you say anymore. Everything else has been a complete lie, so i don't even know when you're telling the truth anymore.
reaperofcards1533: well if thats what u want to believe
reaperofcards1533: it was never a lie
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: And how my family felt about you never should've mattered if you really loved me. When you truly love someone, you do everything you can to stay with them, even through the hard times. You, on the other hand, bailed on us as soon as things got a little difficult.
reaperofcards1533: i would have gave my life for u and u know that and its not that it was a lil difficult
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: then what was it?
reaperofcards1533: it was more than just that we were having problems i couldnt be happy with u around ur parents bc of the way they acted
reaperofcards1533: the killed that for us
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: i already told you that would've only been temporary so i don't know why you're still using that excuse. As soon as we moved in together, they would've been out of the way and we could do whatever we wanted. You knew that, and you still left. And the problems we were having could've been worked out but you decided that leaving would've been much easier
reaperofcards1533: i didnt think it was easier in fact it was the hardest choice i made in my life but if i wasnt happy i couldnt make u happy
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: Apparently it wasn't that hard. It took you less than a day to make that decision. ANd like i said, i was the happiest person alive when we were together, Just knowing that you would be there for me and stay with me in the end got me through everything we went through together. But you didn't even try to work things out with me. You just decided to leave instead of just working things out with me.
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: You even had the nerve to broke up with me over text messaging.
reaperofcards1533: would u have rather had me do it in person then go get in my car and drive away
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: yea i would've. At least i would've known you were man enough to do that.
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: Even Izzy broke up with me in person, and he didn't even love me
reaperofcards1533: that wouldve only hurt u more
reaperofcards1533: i did what i thought best
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: no. it hurt more that you couldn't even face me.
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: well you thought wrong
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: just leave me alone. I've moved on and i don't want you trying to get me to beg for you anymore. I know that's what you're so just stop, ok?
reaperofcards1533: im with sara now and i dont want u to beg for me i just want u to be happy thats all i was hoping we could be civil and possibly be friends but i see i cant do that
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: I wanted to be friends too but everytime i even try to talk to you, you blow me off. You talk to me rudely and you avoid me. And i honestly don't see how you can be with her when you kept telling me that you still loved me. That's how i know you're lying to me.
reaperofcards1533: and i have a tat on my chest that will never let me forget u
reaperofcards1533: i love u as my friend rosa
reaperofcards1533: that is how i can still love u
reaperofcards1533: i still want u to be ok and want u to be able to be taken care of
reaperofcards1533: but i cant be by me
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: because you don't want it to be
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: you never did
reaperofcards1533: i did at one time in my life
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: you don't just stop loving someone for no good reason. You didn't love me the way you said you did. I really feel you used me and as soon as you got bored you left
reaperofcards1533: i never got bored
reaperofcards1533: im goin to bed i have an early day
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: you sure did go to sara pretty quick....
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: And left without finishing a conversation yet again...
reaperofcards1533: just as u ran to someone else
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: i never ran to anyone
reaperofcards1533: then how can u say uve moved on
reaperofcards1533: im going to bed now
vankala86@sbcglobal.net: because someone came to me. Unlike you, this person actually treats me with some respect.

So yea, he chickens out in the end. No surprise there (he seems to be good at that). Frustrating, yes but i expected him to leave eventually before we could finish up our conversation.

...I still love him...i want to accept the fact that its over, but i just can't, no matter how hard i try....

...it turns out there was a reason my mom's been acting the way she has...but i didn't realize it til it was too late....

....Michael broke up with me last wednesday, though at the time he said it would only be temporary. But then on monday, he decideds to make it permanent.....needless to say, I'm still very heartbroken. No one has EVER hurt me this much. It still makes me cry whenever i even talk about it (yes, I'm even crying as i type this...). I just really don't know what happened. He always told me we'd be together no matter what. And then he goes and does this to me. I just feel like he's been lying to me this whole time. ANd my stupid self fell for every single lie! God, I am so stupid. I believed everything he ever told me. I believed all the promises he made me. He really had me believe that we were meant for eachother. He always told me how much he loved me, how i meant the world to him, and that i was the best thing to ever happen to him. Yes, i even lost my virginity to him and that right there was something very, VERY important to me! I had always planned to wait til i was married to lose my virginity, but since i just "knew" that me & michael were meant for eachother, i longer saw the point of waiting since we were gonna get married anyway. So now u see why i feel so stupid and ashamed? I was so blind that i thought i was willingly giving him my virginity when in reality, he pretty much took it from me. I gave it to him thinking that we would always stay together like he said we would and that i meant everything to him like he always told me. But it seems like he never really did care about me at all. No one has EVER hurt me like this before, and i can't believe i let this happen. We made so many plans, both short-term and long-term. But then he just goes and rips my heart out and practically stomps on it. What's worse is that he won't even tell me why he decided he didn't wanna be with me anymore....

...so what does this have to do with my mother? Well, she was first to really come to me and ask me what was wrong with me? She had noticed that I was acting really depressed all last week. I wasn't eating much, and stayed in bed most of the time when i was home. But on friday, she came in my room and asked me what was wrong. Of course, i didn't wanna tell her at first just cuz i didn't think she'd understand, but the more she asked, the more i started thinking about what micahel had done. I eventually just broke down in front of her and i know a scared her cuz she started to cry. I didn't even have to see her face to know she was. I could hear it in her voice. I told her everything thath happened while she held me in her arms like a small child. She gave me advice, of course, and trying my best to follow that advice. We talked and she held me and comforted me for i don't even know how long. I never thought she could be this understanding and i am really glad she came to me instead of waiting til i came to her cuz i probably never would have. We're closer than ever right now b/c i finally understand her and she finally understood how i felt about michael. I broke down again on monday, when micahel "officially" broke up with me. Except this time, my dad was the one who had to comfort me. And it broke his heart too just as much as it did my mom, to see his daughter broke down in tears like that. So not only did michael hurt me, he hurt my parents, much worse than they could ever hurt him. My parents did not deserve that, i don't care what he may think.

He hurt my parents. He lied to me. He broke every promise he ever made to me. He took something that was very sacred to me. I can never forgive him for any of that. And i'm not sure i can ever forgive myself...

Well, since Christmas has come and gone since the last time I posted, I'll go ahead and let you guys know how that went…some other time cuz that may take a little while and there's stuff I'd rather talk about in this post (including a big announcement at the end of the post.  ^_~ Hey, that doesn't mean you can skip the rest of the post! XP).

Well, school has started for me. This semester I'm taking Art Appreciation and Painting I. I have the same instructor for both classes and he seems pretty nice. He gives a lot of work, but I'm gonna do my best to handle it. ^^ Also, this semester is also gonna be the last semester I'm gonna be at the college I'm currently attending. I'm gonna be changing my degree plan cuz the college I'm going to now doesn't have the degree plan I now need. There's another college in the same district that has what I need so, right now I'm just taking a couple of classes that I do need for it at my current college. It probably sunds a little complicated but I'm not quite sure how to explain it. ; But anyways, in case you're wondering I'm going into computer graphics, since I wanna become a game designer. ^^




And now for big announcement!! You guys ready?? XD




Michael asked me to marry him Tuesday night!!! XDDD You guys can't even imagine how happy I am right now!! I have yet to tell my parents, though. I dunno, I'm just kinda scared of how they would react. I know I shouldn't be…but knowing my parents…I don't think they would approve. I mean, its not like it matters, its not their choice. Plus, its not like we're getting married anytime soon. He's still gotta come back from Iraq (he gets deployed in May and he'll be there for a whole year) and sometime after that, we're gonna move in together and I'm sure sometime after that is when we'll start actually planning everything. All I know is that its gonna be a small wedding. I've never been too fond of big, fancy weddings. I mean, they're pretty and all but…they're just not that necessary. I'm perfectly happy with a small wedding. ^_^ Anyways, that was the big announcement! I am so happy to be with Michael. It took us a little over 2 years to be finally be together but it was definitely worth it & that's pretty much how I know Michael is 'the one' or however you wanna put it. Fate gave us a second chance and I'm glad I took it! ^_^

Okay. My last 2 entries were just surveys and didn't really give an actual 'update'. My last update was about A-Kon which was way back in July! O_O! A few big things have happened since then, so I'll give an update. ^^

1. Went to Hawaii at the end of June/beginning of July. I had alot of fun. (How can u not? Its Hawaii!!) I have tons of pics but ther're all on my Snapfish account, so if you wanna see them, give me your e-mail and I'll e-mail them to you (No, you don't have to have a snapfish sccount. At least as far as I know you don't ) I went with my Grandma and my 2 cousins, Marissa and Lisa. We met up with my uncle and his wife and 2 daughters, Alayna and Adriana. They are so cute, too! Alayna's 3 or 4 and Adriana's 2. XD But yea, I had lots of fun there. ^^

2. I got a boyfriend! XD Ok, alot of you probably already know about him if you read my MyOtaku.com blog or MySpace bulletins. SO if you do, you can go ahead and skip this paragraph. But for those who don't already know about him, his name is Michael and I knew him back in HS. We actually liked eachother our senior year but there was one problem: I had a boyfriend by the time he told me he liked me. >_< I know, I should've dumped the other guy and went with michael but...I thought I was making the right decision by staying with the other guy (I know! Stupid, right!?). I dated him for 13 months until he decided to break up with me. (That jerk!!) But by then, I had already lost contact with Michael and was pretty much convinced that I'd never even see him again. You can imagine the regret I felt by then. Another year passed, unti I randomly found Michael on this one site that I just happened to overhear someone else talking about! (Weird, huh?) In case you're wondering, the site is MyYearbook.com. So, anyways, I added him as a friend and all that, and he messaged me. We talked a little one there and on the phone until we were actually able to meet with eachother in person. Things always came up that prevented that. But we finally got to meet up on July 14th and me, him, and a few of my friends went to go see 'Transformers'. And yea, that was our first date. About half-way through the movie he grabbed my hand and we held hands for a little while until he put his arm around me. We stayed like that until he lifted my chin and kissed me. XD It was so unexpected too, so I had pulled away at first but we kissed again and it was much better. It still remember what he said right after we kissed. "I waited 2 years for that." XD So yea, its been about 4 and a half mos since we started dating and already its a very serious relationship. I don't know if you guys wanna know the details of how serious the relationship has gotten but if you ask, I'll tell. I have no problem with that.

Btw, he's in the army and he'll be deployed on May 23rd. He's going to Iraq, so yea I'm pretty worried about that but I try not to think about it too much. He'll be gone for a year (Yes, that means he won't be here for our 1-year anniversary T_T) But when he comes back, we're gonna move in together, so I'm really looking forward to that.

3. I'm legal now! On Nov. 20th, I turned 21! Now I can buy my own booze!! Lol No, I didn't go out and get drunk that night. Actually, I didn't get to do anything. My friends weren't able to go anywhere and my boyfriend had classes that night. T_T I had high expectations for my 21st but I was greatly disappointed T_T. And it seems my boyfriend's 21st won't be fun either cuz our plans for that day have gone down the drain. -_- Oh well, nothing I can do about it now...

4. I'm thinking about moving. Yea, I'm thinking about getting a full-time job (and going to school part-time) so I can afford to move out of my parents' house. My mom has made it clear that she doesn't want me living there anymore and this is the only way I can tihnk of that can make it happen soon. Frankly, I'm quite tired of living here anyways, so even if she changes her mind about it, I won't cuz I'm been tired of living there for awhile (my Xanga shows that quite a bit. ). But of course, I've gotta find that full-time job first. Once I've got that, I'll be good to go.

5. I finally bought a Wii! Yea, I bought one a coupe of weeks ago and I love it! I bghout Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles and it is so much fun!!! I have yet to buy Twilight Princess or Metroid Prime 3 but I'm hoping to get those soon (hopefully for Christmas ). Now, I just need a PS3, and I'll be set! (Must get one for RE5!!!!)

Hmm....that's all I can think of for right now. I'll try to update more but I'm not promising anything.

01.] What is your pen name?
Vankala

02.] What made you choose this name?
Had a friend in HS who was a big fan of LotR and knew Elvish and gave me my Elvish Name which is Vankala!

03.] Do you use PC or Mac?
PC

04.] What programs do you use most often?
Photoshop 7

05.] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
mouse b/c I don't have a tablet yet. T_T

06.] What color or color combinations do you find yourself using most often?
Black & Blue or Black & purple

07.] What part of a picture do you put most effort into?
Everything

08.] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
a few days...I'm a perfectionist when it comes to my drawings.

09.] Do you keep your rough drafts?
sometimes.

10.] What font do you use most often?
Depends on the picture

11.] When you scan your image, what DPI do you use?
eh?

12.] Do you do anything else when you're drawing?
listening to music

13.] Approximately how many pictures do you draw in a month?
Lately, maybe one or two, if any at all....

14.] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
For the rough sketch, I use either regular printer paper or sketch paper...usually whatever's closest to me. Then for the final line-art, I use Bristol Board. ^_^

15.] What kind of paper do you use for rough sketches and drafts?
read above ^

16.] How long does it take you to ink something?
Depends on how much detail is in it, but most of my drawings take a couple of hours at the most.

17.] Do you do comics, or fan comics?
No, not yet.  

18.] Do you like comics? Are they fun to make?
I lke manga and some web comics. I'm sure they'd be fun to make if I had good ideas and was good at it. ^^

19.] Have you ever submitted anything to a magazine?
No

20.] Did it get published?
what did i just say??

21.] Who are your favorite artists?
On DA? There's ElvesAteMyRamen, zeiva, daekazu, ToonTwins, Keysha-chan, kitskids, Neolucky, Hail-Nekoyasha, wazabees, SessLover18, just to name a few...^_~

22.] Do you like anime/manga? If so, what are your favorite series?
Yep! My favorite anime AND manga is Death Note! Fullmetal Alchemist is a close second! ^^

23.] Do you like cartoons/comics? If so, what are your favorite series?
Animaniacs is my favorite cartoon EVER!! I also like Family Guy, The Simpsons, The Boondocks (don't get to watch it much, though),

24.] Any artists that you wish you could draw like?
zeiva! Her drawing are so beautiful! I envy her talent! XD I even bought an artbook from her!

25.] Do you read a lot of books?
I love to read but hardly ever have the time to.

26.] Did you ever buy a book to inspire or teach you to draw?
I buy How to Draw manga books for tips and ideas but other than that, I'm pretty much self-taught. ^^

27.] Any video games you enjoy?
Hell yea! Resident Evil is the best series ever!! XD I also like Castlevania, Zelda, Megaman X, Kingdom Hearts, Metroid, Super Smash Bros, just to name a few. ;D

28.] Any favorite characters from video games?
Link!! Samus is awesome too. Though my favorite VG character ever is Wesker from Resident Evil!

29.] Do you have a favorite writer?
Poppy Z. Brite, Richard Matheson, Clive Barker,

30.] Any books you really enjoy?
I really liked 'I Am Legend' by Richard Matheson. I read it about a year and a half ago and its my favorite book so far. I actually look forward to seeing the movie, even though it looks really different from the book.

31.] Do you draw fanart?
sure do

32.] Do you listen to music while you draw?
yep

33.] Any recommended songs?
Depends on the mood of the drawing ^_~

34.] Any other art websites that you really enjoy?
TheOtaku.com!!!!! XD

35.] Are there any websites that you go to everyday?
Gaia, DA, MyOtaku, MySpace, EvilUnleashed, YouTube,

36.] What is your dream website like?
I dunno, never thought of actually having a website other than my blogs and profiles

37.] Do you like your own art?
My newer drawings. ^^

38.] What do you enjoy watching on television?
House, Bones, Ugly Betty, Family Guy, reruns of Home Improvement, Ghost Hunters, Mythbusters, Dirty Jobs,

39.] Favorite celebrity?
Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Dane Cook,

40.] Favorite color?
Dark Blue

41.] Favorite food?
Pizza

42.] Favorite drink?
Green Tea

43.] Do you like to go shopping? If yes, where? And for what?
Yea, when I have the money. I mostly like to shop at Borders and GameStop, and sometimes eBay.

44.] Can you cook?
a few things.

45.] Any devices you use often for email? Any electronic pets?
Just Yahoo.

lmao, when i was in like 3rd grade, i had one of those. It died like every day! It was hilarious!

46.] Are you tech-savvy?
not really, but I know enough i guess

47.] Do you want to become a professional artist?
That would be nice, but it be very, very hard to be successful at it. (So, I've heard)

48.] Are there any other jobs you're interested in?
Game Design. Either actual animating or concept art. Not sure which one yet.

56.] Do you have a lot of net friends?
yea, I have more online friends then I do in person.

57.] Do you have a lot of friends that also draw?
not alot, just a few.

58.] What time of the day do you usually go online?
off & on the whole day usually.

59.] Do you like to go to chat rooms?
if I'm invited to one with only a few people that I actually know (either online or in person). We usually have a good ol' time, too! Hmm...we haven't done that in awhile now that I think about it.

60.] Do you have your own computer?
yep. I'm on it now!

61.] What would you say to the person that you admire?
um....iunno...*shrugs*

62.] Does your mind wander when you draw?
sometimes...

63.] Have you drawn poorly because you think too much?
yes...that's when I know Have to take a break...

64.] Do you have any friends who are professional artists?
not professional artists, but I know a few of them wanna at least try to be one

65.] Where do you often hang out?
My room if I'm by myself. When I'm out with my friends we just go wherever.

66.] Are there any popular artists that you don't like much? (no need to name names if you don't want to)
yea....i can't think of their names though...

67.] Are there any situations in which you really don't like being a DeviantARTIST?
none yet.

68.] How about situations that make you love it?
getting comments and s! And making artist friends who have the same interests as me. ^^ Oh, and learning new tips to help me to improve.

69.] What's the one thing that makes you grateful that the internet exists?
My awesome online friends! You know who you are!

70.] Is there anything out there that makes you wish the internet didn't exist?
Stalkers, Art Thieves,

71.] What's your first Deviation?
just one of my Elf drawings.

72.] Any art you did prior to that?
oh yea, alot! They're all on TheOtaku.com!

73.] Has your style changed a lot since joining DeviantART?
Yea a little

74.] If it has changed, it what ways?
More detail in the hair and face. And also how I color some things.

75.] Have you experienced artist's block before?
I"VE HAVE IT ALMOST THIS WHOLE YEAR!!!!!! >_<

76.] If so, how do you usually get out of it?
wait for inspiration to hit me...

77.] What do you do when you can't get out of it?
Looks for inspiration. I play video games, read a book, or watch tv...sometimes ideas just pop into my head when I do those things.

78.] Any Deviants that have influenced you a lot?
ElvesAteMyRamen, the most. I've leared the most from her.

79.] What made you want to start drawing?
I don't remember, really. I've been drawing since I was little so I'm not sure what started it. I know it was Sailor Moon that made me start drawing anime, though. XD

80.] What made you want to join DeviantART?
B/c of the more advanced artists that I could learn from. There are only like a handful on TheO and most of them have DA accounts, anyway so I decided to join too. ^^ Also, I'm able to post my non-anime art on here, too. ^^

81.] Has anything ever made you want to quit DevianART?
nope

82.] What do you think about netiquette?
what?

83.] Have you ever been spammed or trolled?
on DA? No.

84.] Ever thought about quitting art all together?
No

85.] If so, why?
n/a

86.] Do you upload high quality versions of your Deviations, or do you prefer to upload a lower quality?
high quality

87.] Do you have custom CSS? If so, did you make it yourself?
I have no idea how to do that or even what it is!

88.] Do you have good vision?
when i have my contacts on...

89.] If you can get anyone's autograph, whose would you get?
Gackt!! <3 <3 <3 I would say Vic Mignogna but I've gotten his autograph a couple times already. ^^

90.] What would you say to that person when he or she gives you an autograph?
I have absolutley no idea...probably glomp him! XD No, no I wouldn't. I don't wanna scare him.

91.] Do you like to draw on Oekaki BBS?
on what now?

92.] Do you have a job?
yea, but I need a new one

93.] Did you take art in school? If so, did you do well? Are you still taking it?
Yes, yes, and yes.

94.] Have you taken art lessons outside of a school setting?
no

95.] Have you ever drawn something just because it was the cool thing to do?
no

96.] What's your favorite phrase/quote?
Random cheesy quotes from the original Resident Evil game and sometimes RE2.

"ADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

97.] Do you present yourself differently online than you do in your real life?
i don't tihnk i do. There are some things some of my online friends don't know about me, and I try not to bother them with my problems. Actually I don't like bothering anyone with my problems...

98.] What's your goal now?
to get a full-time job and move outta this house!

99.] What do you have to say to yourself?
OMG! I'm almost done with the survey! Success!!! XD

100.] Lastly, what do you have to say to everyone who read this?
What? They're still here? I thought they'd left by now! They must be REALLY bored!!! lmao!

Okay, I'm finally done! That took awhile!

Your boy side

(x) You love hoodies.
(x) You love jeans
() Dogs are better than cats.
(x) It's hilarious when people get hurt. (As long as they weren't severely injured.)
() You've played with/against boys on a team.
(x) Shopping is torture.
() Sad movies suck.
() You own an X-Box. (still need a 360!!!)
(x) Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
() At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
(x) You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
(X) You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
() You watch sports on TV.
(x) Gory movies are cool.
() You go to your dad for advice.
() You own like a trillion baseball caps.
() You like going to football games.
() You used to/do collect baseball cards.
() Baggy pants are cool to wear.
() It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
(X) Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
(X) you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
() Sports are fun.
(x) Talk with food in your mouth. (sometimes)
() Wear boxers.

11 Boy Points

YOUR GIRL SIDE.
() You wear lip gloss. (i wear chapstick)
()You love to shop
(x) You wear eyeliner. (sometimes)
() You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
() You wear the color pink.
()Go to your mom for advice.
()You consider cheerleading a sport.
() You hate wearing the color black.
(x) You like hanging out at the mall (only at certain stores)
()You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
() You like wearing jewelry
()Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
()Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
() You don't like the movie Star Wars.
()You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
() It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, ad put on make-up and accessories.
()You smile a lot more than you should. (How much is too much, jerk-off?)
() You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
(x) You care about what you look like.
()You like wearing dresses when you can.
()You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
(x)You wear girl underwear (...I kinda HAVE to, y'know. -_-)
(x) Used to play with dolls as little kid. (...I'm ashamed to admit it...but yes. I was a little girlier when I was younger.)
()Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
() Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

5 girl points

Lol, I somehow knew I'd get more boy points.

Don't have time for an actual update today cuz my next class starts in 10 minutes. I'll give an actual update whenever i can, though. ^^ Laterz! ^^//

Okay I should've updated last week, but I honestly didn't  feel like updating at all really. Sorry. But I'm updating now. :3 Anyways, first thing i wanna talk about is the anime convention I went to the weekend before last (June 1st-3rd). Long story short, I had a blast! The Friday I went to the Voice Actor Panel with Vic Mignogna, Chris Patton (Sousuke from Full Metal Panic, Greed from FMA), Wendy Powell (Envy from FMA), and Xero Reynolds. They were really funny, especially Chris! XD If you guys ever go to Con and he's doing a panel there, be sure to go cuz he's just plain hilarious! I also went to the Risembool Ranger Panel and to a surprise birthday party for a fellow Ranger. ^^ Here's some pics:

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That's the hotel that the Con took place in and its also the hotel me and my friends stayed in. ^^

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That's the view that we had from our hotel room.

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Same view, but at night. :3

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That's the Komik Market where artists, costumes designers, etc. would sell their stuff. I took this pic form the escalator, btw.

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Random picture of a random hallway. lol

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Hehe, at A-Kon, if you lose your badge, the staff makes you do embarrassing things like sing and/or dance to My Little Teapot, the Chicken Dance, or The Itsy Bitsy Spider. In this poor guy's case he had to sing the Itsy Bitsy Spider which entertained alot of people, as you can see. lol

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This was taken at the Risembool Ranger Panel. As you may or may not know, Vic Mignogna most recent role is Fai (sp?) from Tsubasa. (I have not seen this anime (yet) but I look forward to it. ) Anyways, a girl cosplaying as Fai, let Vic put on her jacket and of course I had to take a picture of him. I took more than 1 but this is the only one that came out good. We all laughed when he pretended to run away with it:

Vic: "Hey, do you know that girl?" *points to someone behind the cosplayer*
Cosplayer: *looks*
Vic: *starts to run away*

Lol, good times.

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That's the Pyro, the Risembool Ranger whose birthday we celebrated that night. ^^

Saturday was alot of fun too. The Voice Actor Improv was on that day. If you don't know what this is, the best way for me to describe it is, its like that show 'Whose Line Is It Anyway?' but with Voice Actors. ^^ The VAs there were Vic (of course), Chris Patton, and Xero Reynolds. Those 3 had everyone laughing throughout the entire hour. And to be honest, the hour went by way too fast! But it was alot of fun. And afterwards, I got to meet Chris (yay!). There was also a Risembool Ranger Picnic that I went to but couldn't stay the entire time, though I forgot why. Here's some more pics from that day:

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The VA Improv didn't start until Vic got there. Of course he came in cosplaying. ^^ He didn't the same thing last year except he was cosplaying as Cloud from FFVII. This year he's cosplayed as...something (I forgot what they were called T_T) from Star Wars. He came to the RR Picnic dressed like that too, so I knew that was him the minute he walked in. lol

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That's Xero in the middle messing with the buzzer thing, pretending to be a DJ. lol

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Chris, Xero, and Vic listening to the rules and directions for the improv. Xero looks concerned while Chris looks excited about the whole thing (which he was, lol)

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That's them getting started with the first skit, which was "Questions Only", where they could only talk to eachother using only questions.

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In the skit, "Props", Chris got a little friendly with that easle thing. 0o

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...Not sure what was going on here or what that thing even is...but still looks funny, ne? (Still "Props", btw)

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"Props", still. Oh boy, the fangirls went crazy when Vic put Chris on a leash. Still interesting though. lol

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Oh no!! Vic's threatening the bunny!! XD

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Chris and Vic listening to directions for the next skit, which I don't remember the name of but what they had to do was randomly say quotes that were written on little pieces of paper that the audience submitted.

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DUring the same skit, Xero played a Lion Tamer with tentacles, Chris played his biggest fan, and Vic was the announcer or whatever you call it. Don't ask me what Chris is saying in this picture cuz I honestly don't know.

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The next skit, was the one where Vic answered questions from the audience while Chris acted as Vic's hands. If you've seen "Whose Line?" you know how this goes. lol

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After the improv I met Chris and took a pic with him. Yes, I was originally in the pic but I cropped myself out.

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Random pic at the RR picnic. I would've taken alot more but my battery died on me and I accidently left my spare batteries in the hotel room. >_<

Sunday was my day to buy stuff! In case you don't know, the last day of the Con is the day where dealers mark their prices down. I bought 5 mangas, Death Note 2: The Last Name, and 2 T-shirts. I think that's all I bought but there could be something that I'm forgetting. My friend Juan got me an L plushie. That was really nice of him. I was also looking all over the dealer's room for a Tamaki plushie cuz I saw a few girls earlier that day and, being a Tamaki fangirl myself, I had to have one! I asked one girl where she got hers, and went to where she said she got it but it turned out that they were sold out. T_T I looked everywhere else just in case they had one but no luck. *sigh* I want a Tamaki plushie...

I didn't take many pictures that day so I saved all the cosplay pics for right now. ^^ So here they are:

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I'm not much of a fan of Halo, but I really liked this guy's costume.

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I despise Pokemon, but these cosplayers' costumes were really good so I took a picture anyway.

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One of the many Ls I saw at A-Kon. I was considering cosplaying as L, but I'm kinda glad I didn't cuz I wouldn't wanna go as someone alot of other people were cosplaying too.

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I'm not sure if this is an original cosplay or if its from a show or movie or what, but this guy's cosplay kicks ass in my opinion!

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Lol, imagine my excitement when I saw a Resident Evil cosplayer! XD This is Jill Valentine from the first RE game. I've already decided that whatever I cosplay as next year, its definitely gonna be RE-related! Can't wait!

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Jet from Cowboy Bebop. When I took his picture I somehow didn't even notice the pic of Faye he was holding.

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Of course, their were many Jack Sparrow's at the Kon but this was one of the better ones. He even had the 'Jack-walk' down....either that or he really was drunk...>>

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Bonta-kun!! I saw I a few Bonta-kuns at A-Kon but this was the first (and best) that I saw there. ^^ Kawaii! I just wanted to glomp him and never let go! XD (I didn't, don't worry). lol

Sorry, there weren't alot of cosplay pics, but I'm kinda picky when it comes to cosplay. Plus, at such a big convention, its hard to see every single great cosplay there, so I'm sure there were ALOT of other great cosplayers there. If you're interested in seeing more pics of the cosplayer's there, you can always check out the A-Kon website.

That's all for today. I tried to keep this as short as possible...so much for that! lol. Later all! ^^/

Hey all! Well, first off I've submitted something new! *gasp*

Have a look-see if you haven't already: [link]

Hope ya'll like! Anyways, I bought me a new camera today! Yay! I've finally upgraded to a digital camera. Think I might give my old one to my little brother....maybe....dunno yet. First, I gotta figure out how to use it (I'm such a noob, huh?). Shouldn't take me to long (hopefully). I decided to buy cuz I'm going to an anime convention next weekend and I wanted to take a camera but I was getting tired of my old one taking crappy pics. And my mom had gotten one for Christmas and after I saw how much better her pics looked than mine, I started to want one of my own. So now I have one! Yay!

So, about the convention. I obviously won't be online at all that weekend (June 1-3) but I plan on taking lots of pics. I'll post those when I get back. ^_^ I'll also tell you guys all about the con as well. My little brother is only going for one day, though. I wish he could go longer but my mom won't let him. T_T A few of my friends are going as well (Juan, Julie, Stephen, Adrien). My cousin Marissa is probably gonna go too since she's gone the last couple of years. I need to call her and make sure.

.:Resident Evil Rant:. (Non-RE fans may get confused)
Anyways, other than that not much has been going on these days. Well, other than the fact that I've become officially obsessed with Resident Evil (more than I already was). Seriously, I can play those games all day and never grow tired of them. Most recently I played and finished RE3 for the first time. It was fun but Nemesis (the main monster-boss-dude) scared me every time he showed up. It was scary....but I loved it! Now that I've played all the ones I need to (minus RE 0) I actually find Resident Evil 4....a disappointment. *dodges rotten vegetables being thrown at her* I'm not saying its not a good game or anything. Its actually really fun! But, its just not a good RE game. See, before RE4, the RE games were all about Survival Horror! Conserving ammo is a must if you wanna get beat the game. And also, the RE games are actually....scary. And I mean scary as in "creepy" not just something to make you jump. RE4, on the other hand, is more of an action game that survival horror. You can pretty much go crazy with the handgun and even the shotgun since ammo is pretty much everywhere! Heck, even the enemies drop ammo and health they die! Now, that right there is NOT Survival Horror! Also, there's the merchant. Yea, I like the merchant and all, he's cool and everything...but that also takes away from the survival horror genre that RE was known for! So pretty much, RE4 is the easiest RE game ever! Its actually too easy. Yea, its hard the first time through since you really don't know what you're doing. Lol. But after awhile, you crave something more challenging cuz its just gotten too easy. Another reason RE4 is kind of a let-down is b/c...it has nothing to so with the RE storyline! Sure it has some characters from the other games if it weren't for them, it would be really hard to tell that this was an RE game in the first place. -_- I'm just hoping RE5 will have something in it that can tie RE4 together with the rest of the games. Maybe...Wesker mixed the Las Plagas sample with the T-Virus (and maybe the G-virus) in order to create something different? That's highly unlikely since I don't think Ada ever gave him the Las Plagas sample but maybe he still got a hold of it somehow?? I dunno. Anyways, don't let this rant make you think I hate RE4 now. Lol, I actually still love it just as much as I did before I played the other games. I just don't think it belongs in the RE storyline is all. At least...not yet. We'll see what Capcom comes up with.

Anyways, I'm wanting to do some RE fan art and I have some ideas but not sure what to do first. The only RE fan art I've ever done was of Alice from the movies. Despite the fact that ALOT of RE game fans HATE the movies....I actually love them! I can go on another rant about that but I think I've ranted enough. Can't wait for the 3rd movie!!!

(Whoever gets tagged has to write up in their journal 6 weird things about themselves. So you start the journal with "Six Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and you gotta state the rules clearly as well. After you're done typing up your little oddities you tag 6 other people and list their names. Make sure you leave a comment on their devPage "You Are Tagged!" and refer them to your own journal.)

1) I can't stand it when its quiet (in my house). I always have to have a TV on or have music playing. Silence just bothers me for some odd reason. ^^:

2) No matter how much i try to stay organized, it just never works out. I'm so disorganized...yet I can easily find what i need. 0o?

3) No matter how "girly" it may seem, Sailor Moon will always have a special place in my heart since it was my first anime! It was also the reason I started drawing anime! (My first anime drawings were of Sailor Moon and I even made up my own characters but in sort of a "sailor moon style". So yea, that's how it all started with me. ^^ Go Sailor Moon!

4) I love video game music! I've downloaded lots of songs from ocremix.org, which has tons of remixes from many video games! I even buy video game soundtracks if there's one available for the game music that I want. Some soundtracks that I have are from Resident Evil 4, Kingdom Hearts 2, some of the Zelda games (on one disc), and the Castlevania series (3 of the games).

5) No matter how tired I am, I will NOT use the rail when going up the stairs. I've seen too many walk out the bathroom w/o even washing their hands (eww!)! And alot of people use the rails so I avoid them! Lol, good thing i have strong legs.

6) I have a very short attention span! My mind always goes somewhere else w/o me even knowing about it....even if someone's talking to me! 0o! Seriously, I'll be having a conversation with someone and suddenly I start thinking of something else. Its not intentional and its not that they're boring me, I just can't seemed to stay focused sometimes.

Hope those were good. Hehe. Let's see, who should I tag...?

1) *Jennycah
2) ~Morgster
3) ~Angelicotter
4) ~AwesomeDude898
5) ~kitsunemichiyo

....crap, I can't think of anymore people! >_< Don't have many friends on here, so...yea. T_T

Laters!

My first entry! Yay! And I have absolutely nothing to talk about!...>>...but I'll think of something to ramble about. I always do in my other journals/blogs/whatever you wanna call it!

Had a Govt test today. Kinda hard, kinda easy. Not sure if I passed it or not. We'll have to wait and see. ^^

I saw Ghost Rider on saturday. Gotta say I really liked it! I wonder if there will be any sequels...and when I say sequels, I mean GOOD sequels! Like PotC 2 or Spider-man 2! XD Not craptastic crap like alot of the sequels out there. >> Speaking of sequels, I saw another preview for Spider-man 3! XD I can't wait til it comes out! I've waiting so long (ever since the last one!).

BTW, I'm sorry for the lack of Deviations here but I haven't quite completed anything in awhile...>> I'll try and get something done by the end of the month (though it'll probably be just a sketch or line-art or something since alot of my time goes into schoolwork and stuff like that. T_T.) Who knows when I'll actually have time to post another colored drawings. *sigh* I have a couple of sketches right now that I might upload but since they're on notebook paper (I get bored in class...) they'll most likely be in the 'scraps' section. Well, I g2g. I'm hungry so I'm gonna go see what I can afford from the vending machine. lol Laters! ^^//